People do not know what a “hard pregnancy” is until they have lived through this. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy; well….just kidding. I don’t even know how to explain what this sickness feels like except, it literally feels like the flu 24/7; you can’t do anything without being in the worst amount of discomfort you can imagine. I lived in the hospital for 12 weeks before I was discharged. I couldn’t leave the hospital because I was literally vomiting 15, 17, 20 to 30 times every single day! DAYS would go by where I ate nothing because not even the smallest sip of water would stay down and my weight just keep dropping. I was SO SO hungry (YOU CANT EVEN IMAGINE) but the doctors and nurses wouldn’t give me anything! Not even a cracker or ice chip! I begged and cried for food some days and they still told me no. Sometimes I would ask my husband or mom for just a small bite of WHATEVER they were eating, they told me yes 🙂 . I was so hungry at that point I didn’t even care if I threw it back up. When I would throw up 10 times a day, the doctors would reward me with an Ensure the following day. I say an Ensure, meaning 1! Lol. Today I can’t even stand the smell of Ensure….
I got all the way down to 115 pounds at one point, and I am 5’9! If you know anything about height and weight, that measurement does not add up. I was extremely dehydrated, weak, exhausted, tired, crabby and literally on every medication you could possibly think of. You name it, I was on it. From the heaviest of drugs that were not good for baby to the safest drug that was best for baby. Nothing took away the vomiting, discomfort and pain. The doctors and nurses just kept saying, “give it time”.
Talk about being stressed while you are pregnant! I was so worried about the baby when they were pumping me with medication that I truly didn’t know if this little peanut would survive. Check up upon check up, sonogram after sonogram the little one has hung in there and still has a great heartbeat.
Coming home has not been a cake walk. I had to re-learn how to walk and eat. Haha walking, it sounds so easy. After being in bed for so long my legs lost all muscle and when I tried to walk on my own at home, for almost 2 weeks straight I fainted/fell to the ground almost every day. One fall took place at Target and it scared the hell out of Mark and me. Blood everywhere! There have been many days here at home where I have exceeded the normal amount of vomiting for a pregnant mom and almost had to check back into the hospital. I am MUCH better now, but still not having a “normal” pregnancy. I’ll take vomiting 5 times a day and feeling like absolute s&^% 24/7 and living at home, verses living in a hospital and vomiting 17-30 times a day.
After reading this you can only imagine what kind of shape I was in, what I must of looked like- HORRIBLE! Lol, and how exhausted I was. Lucky for me every day that my mom was up there in the hospital she was taking photos and video of me. Those photos are never to be shown to anyone!
I feel so blessed to have such a loving husband and mom who still called me beautiful, held my hair when I was on the floor puking excessively, helped me shower, changed me when I puked all over myself, and put their work on hold for days at a time to sit by my bed side and just watch me sleep. Days would turn into nights and nights would turn into days. I would be passed out for 8, 12, 16 hours straight and wake up to still find Mark, my mom or sometimes both of them still at the hospital by my side. I truly would not have made it this far in my pregnancy without the help of both of them. Here is to the rest of my pregnancy.
HOPEFULLY it’s not as rocky as the first part.